I’ve been thinking a lot lately..shocker, I know. But more specifically, I’ve been thinking about how short life is and how crucial it is to be intentional every single day and in every single area of life. To be intentional about my relationships. To be intentional about my school work. To be intentional about what I allow in my soul, mind, and body. The list is never ending.
To be intentional is to knowingly change your direction. It’s to do things on purpose.
I think our lives would look a lot different if we were more intentional. If we all took some time to allow ourselves to grasp how short life is. Because it’s true, life is short, and denying that, or trying to ignore it, will only lead us down a path full of regret. And who wants that? A huge part of being intentional that I hadn’t given as much thought to in the past is letting go and accepting things for what they are. I don’t think it’s possible to be intentional until you’ve done these two things. That means accepting all types of situations that happen throughout life-the good and the bad. And once you’ve done that, the next step is to let it go. It sounds so simple reading those words on a screen, but often times it’s a very difficult, painful, and humbling experience. Whether that’s a relationship (with a friend, family member, or significant other), a situation (a death, not getting that job, or not being accepted to that school), or whatever it may be. At some point you have to let go of what you thought should happen and live in what is happening. You just have to. I know what that means for me. I know that means accepting myself, accepting my family situation, and accepting that I can’t change people no matter how good my intentions are. It means letting go of expecting perfection and allowing myself to make mistakes, letting go of wondering what it’d be like “if”, and letting go of/accepting the fact that people won’t change until they really want to. I’ve been working on all three of these things since I’ve moved away from home and it’s been such a freeing thing for me. The feeling of overcoming challenges on my own is one of my favorite things in the world to experience and it has brought so much joy and gratitude into my life, I can’t even tell you. I’m so grateful to have people in my life who know me well enough to know that I need to figure things out on my own as they stand by my side to show their support. It’s like one of my favorite quotes that reads:
I don’t want someone to save me, I want someone to stand by my side as I save myself.”
This semester has been so eye opening and incredible. It has made me realize how strongly I desire to live intentionally. To live on purpose. For me, that means not allowing any situation (from my past, present, or future) to hold me back or control me. It means taking advantage of the great opportunities I have, in and out of school. It means listening to God and allowing Him to use me however He pleases. It means letting go of control and obeying that still small voice that will tell me where I’m supposed to go and what I’m supposed to do. It means realizing that I may not always feel capable, but God is fully capable and I can do all things through Him who gives me strength (Philippians 4:13). It means letting go of fear because to fear is to set limitations on God, and that’s absolutely ridiculous considering His power and might (2 Chronicles 20:6). Like I said, life is short and it is the desire of my heart to live it well. I want to let go of my comfort and embrace discomfort. I want to go wherever God wants me to go and do whatever God wants me to do. I want to live this way for the rest of my life and being intentional will help me accomplish these goals of mine. I’ve realized that this world is not my home and it’s simply not about me. I’ve decided that I’m willing to accept and embrace whatever it is that God has for me and I’m pretty excited to see how it all pans out.